Realizations [❁]Friday, January 27, 2012
I think I'm being called out. I've been thinking about this for some time now and I really haven't made an established decision yet. There were so many signs and noise favoring each side of the argument. When I look at one argument, I'm thinking that I can still endure it because the fruits would surely bear in the future. I thought the counter-argument of it is not acceptable because it promotes things that would also pass in time.
Until I thought of the people around me -- my family, especially my parents. They're old already. They have officially accomplished their goal in life and it's now up to us to handle our own problems. They believe we are already old enough to judge what is right from what is wrong (well yeah they are right, I'm already 22). It made me realize that I'm going to make this decision not just for my sake, but for my parents as well. I haven't given back to them yet. I don't know what the future will hold for us (actually no one does) so every minute really counts. My initial stand was to stay for it until the agreement ends but then again timing is crucial.
Just last night, I realized so many things about our current situation at home. I don't know if it's just a feeling but I really hope that I could make the difference that I want to see on other people.
I want to get out of my comfort zone. I want to challenge myself again. That time is now.