It really amazes me how things can change within just a week. The past six days felt like a lifetime. Now that I have received the closure that I didn't know I needed, I am ready to head to a new direction. I think this really marks a turning point in my journey. The supposed-to-be-a-month "reflecting period" became just a week-long contemplation. God blessed me to wrap it up in the nicest way possible.

First of all, I'm very thankful to God and the Universe for orchestrating this gentle conclusion of this chapter of my life. I imagine it like a box neatly wrapped around with ribbons. I will store it away and look back at it in a more beautiful and gentler way.

Don't get me wrong. I am still hurting. There are still physical manifestations, but I feel like it's for a different reason now. I think my nervous system is still catching up with all the things that happened in the past week.

One of the jarring observations that I had during this journey is that I tend to put others first before myself. This has been a lifelong pattern for me, not just in romantic relationships, but also in other aspects of my life. So that is one thing that I am learning, an area of my life that I really need to work on. As cliché as it sounds, I really have to fill my own cup first before I can share my love with others in a healthy and sustainable way.

I feel like I'm on a new road right now, with a lot of new scenarios, new possibilities, and new adventures awaiting in the horizon. But of course, I am taking things slowly and intentionally. One step at a time.

First things in order: I want to learn how to love myself more. How can I improve the different aspects of my life: may it be in the physical, mental, emotional, social, and spiritual areas? I guess that's one of my action items right now, to have a plan for what I can do, for each of these areas, so that I can become a better person holistically.

Second, I want to focus on building good habits. I have a tendency to put high standards on myself, which I don't usually meet, that's why I tend to feel disappointed with myself. I have to recalibrate with my expectations. I have to remind myself to avoid being too hard on myself, and learn how to pace myself with work and my personal goals to avoid burn out. I need to find that magic space, that area where I am not within my comfort zone but also not pushing myself too much. I want to be in that area of growth, and that's something I will be exploring.

Third, which is the most actionable one, I want to return to reading more. I really enjoyed consuming self-help books. I want to get back on that. However, this time, I want to execute my learnings. I mean, reading self-help books will mean nothing if I just read them. 😅

And this reminds me, I will need to relaunch my quarterly goals project. I have not done any for this year (because understandably, I was distracted 😅). But now, I will return to it. ✨

I'm looking forward to this new chapter of my life. 📖🖋️✨