Is There More to Life?

October 21, 2013

Ever had that feeling of wanting to escape from reality, like snap out of the monotonous habits that you have and just get out there, explore for something more?

I had that exact feeling upon waking up this morning. My mind was running along lots of different excuses not to go to work today. However nothing seemed to fit and they all made no sense so I had no choice but to get up and prepare for the day. It's yet another work week ahead.

I wanted to do something different today, but I am tied to the responsibilities that I have in the society. In the middle of all the things that happen everyday, I suddenly felt this urge to pause, breath and think. Is this it? Is this how things would pass for me? I feel like I am missing everything about life, that I am not making the most out of it.

Sometimes I think, why do I exist? Why does this world exist? Contemplating within this train of thought always makes my mind ache, like it seems the answers are beyond the human mind to comprehend. This scenario kind of reminds me of this character in The Night Circus novel by Erin Morgenstern, Tara, the other half of the Burgess twins. If you've read the book, you know what happened to her in the story. To think deeply about life makes me enlightened and depressed at the same time. That's why to push away senseless thoughts, I just keep myself busy with things, and just go with the flow. Before I know it, I would be drifting away again with the usual wave of everyday life.

So much for these bubble of thoughts (maybe it's because it's a Monday). And yeah, I think I need some kind of inspiration. 

With that, I will rewatch Randy Pausch's The Last Lecture. Good thing I have a copy on the hard drive.

(... and after an hour, I found myself bawling my eyes out of inspiration from the talk... and the last few sentences still gave me goosebumps. )

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  1. I've thought about these things multiple times, usually when I feel down or when, like you, I feel uninspired.

    'Life is about the collection of memories.' says a character from a recent Downton episode.

    I love this song by Stacie Orrico about the topic:

    1. I have to download that song! It's been a while since I heard that. :)


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