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| (📷: this was from him, during the summer he want back to his hometown) |
I love music. Music is that one constant companion of mine throughout my life. It is the one that has consistently been my pal and my source of happiness. It's one of the reasons why I have music notes on my tattoo. Also, I have huge respect for musicians that's why whenever I can, I would attend concerts of artists that I really got to love, as tribute to their lovely pieces of art that had a great impact in my life.
Music has its unique way of touching my soul. There are songs that will instantly take me back to a place where I felt happy and innocent. There are songs that will immediately bring back memories, may it be good or bad. There are songs that will, no fail, raise my vibrations and make me in a happier mood for the rest of the day.
It is for these same reasons that I was avoiding listening to music recently. I recognize that I am at my most vulnerable self, emotionally at least, that's why I was afraid to listen to music because it might touch and seep through my soul in a way that I'm still not comfortable and ready. Well, tonight, I experienced what I was mostly afraid of experiencing --- feeling a relapse due to a random love song heard.
I was just organizing my stuff at home because I just got back from a trip. I played my Discover Weekly playlist on Spotify as background music while I was arranging my things. However, I was suddenly stopped in my tracks when I heard this song playing.
I listened to the music and read the lyrics, and I felt my heart crushed into pieces. Here are the lyrics of the song:
Another Universe
Fall in Luv
I saw you in a dream I didn′t wanna leave
We were dancing down a quiet moonlit street
Your hand in mine, like the world stayed still
Like fate had bent to match our will
In that place, we stayed side by side
Hearts unshaken, with nothing to hide
In another universe, we never broke
Riding through the dusk wrapped in your coat
Your laugh filled the air like a secret verse
We made it last in another universe
Still calling you mine
In a life we didn't rewind
You wore that shirt from the day we met
Faded blue, but you never once forget
And in that space, we kissed like time stood back
Like gravity forgot to act
In that frame, our stars never dimmed
Love was quiet but never thinned
In another universe, we stayed warm
Wrote our names in the glass before the storm
Your eyes told the truth I always rehearsed
We held it close in another universe
Still finding you near
In a world untouched by fear
If threads of time can ever bend
Maybe we′ll find our way again
And I'll reach for you without regret
In a world where we never forget
In another universe, you're still here
Filling all the silence I used to fear
Hands intertwined like a sacred verse
We had forever in another universe
If the many-worlds interpretation is true, there indeed exists a timeline wherein we didn't part ways. I can see myself so clearly in that timeline and the life that we would have lived together. 😔
The pain is still there, because the love is still there. I believe this is going to be this way for life. The feelings come in waves. Some hit stronger than others, like this moment. And it's okay if I break down and cry. It's okay, because it just meant that I truly cared for that person.
“’Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.”
-Alfred Lord Tennyson’s In Memoriam A.H.H. (1849)
~o~
I can just hear him say that naaah that's an AI-generated song 😅
Well regardless if it is or not, it still touched my heart. And that's the more important thing for me.
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